I have a really big day tomorrow.  I have been anxiously waiting and planning for this day for some time.  I know my Husband and family probably don’t need me to unload all of my frustrations and worries on them as that’s not fair.  I can’t do anything about this.  I can not go back in time or rewrite history.  If only.  What I can control is my reaction.  I am through the denial, anger and frustration phases.  I am in now in, what I lovingly refer to as, the “nesting and preparation” phase. I’m going to use one of my life diversions.
I could sit and worry, gripe, cry and complain.  OR, I can cook.  Now, I don’t mean make dinner.  I mean make the ones I love happy with what I pour into these meals.  These snacks, tastes of happiness.  I know that for that slated prepatation time on the recipe card I am creating my own destiny 1 cup of flour at a time.  I can control that and  it’s outcome.  For a few minutes all is right and clear.
So, as of right now, I am prepared.  I know that I have a freezer full of early morning tidbits, afternoon snacks (2-ingredient Nutella brownies) and love.  For my sons, for my husband….for life.  I am prepared.  They are with me and that fills me with abundant peace.